JUST PEOPLE

Have you ever felt you do things that go unnoticed. At first you do them just because then they become a daily routine. I had one of those days today where I hate everyone I am close to or see everyday. Those days where I want to punch a wall until your bones bleed. I want to crawl into a hole and scream. Some people just click. They are alike in most ways. Now some days I just want to punch a wall. I cry everyday. I don't know why but I do. I do not have dreams I have nightmares. Not of those near me but a made up world that seems to have a bigger impact in my life than the real world. You might say I should suck it up and go into the real world. But I do not want to. My nightmares are my haven. A place I can hide form the real nightmares of my life. Sleep is not just a something you do. It can help you. It makes me anti-social but I don't care. I don't care if I end up sleeping 12 hours a day sometimes. There are days when I gets so strong I wish I could live there. Jump from a tall building and end up with eternal sleep. I cant keep myself in the dream world for long. The day continues on whether or not you want it to. The things that make me smile in the real world disappear and become stressful. My dreams mix with my reality only making me realize how awful it really is.